Apology/Disclaimer

for the length of the posts recently.  Honestly, people, even you parents, don't feel pressured to read it all.  I'm just rambling for my own sake.  I think I've been here long enough that I'm starting to be able to make sense of things.  And when stuff is no longer totally overwhelming, no longer leaves you open-mouthed and dazed...it leaves you with a lot on your mind.